I didn’t know I can love someone insanely so bad that it’s bringing me tears thinking how much it would hurt if this person would just rather choose to leave me.
Fears and what ifs are creeping me out.
I’m afraid of the –ier and the more-.
I’m afraid that one day he would just wake up and realize that he doesn’t want me anymore. He doesn’t love and need me anymore.
I’m afraid that he’ll think that I’m just a frickin burden.
I am just afraid that he would suddenly decide to give up on me.
I know, I know these do not help.
Perhaps, all these worries and overthinking are merely a consequence for being too happy with your significant other; that loving them too much is making you emotional already.
Feeling all these things made me realize even more how badly I love the person who I am with right now. How badly I want to grow up with him, to end up marrying him and to build a home with him.
I certainly don’t want this love to end, for I fuckin love this person so much.